L's I've received and given hundreds and hundreds of hours of auditing and enjoyed both beyond description. Ron has said that standard tech delivers the goods, I'm paraphrasing here, but you know what I mean. The trouble is arbitraries that come on the line; poor metering, bad TR's, out auditors code, inadequate C/Sing. I like auditing that bites, it takes perfect metering, masterly, but unobtrusive TR's, ethical use of the auditors code and a CS who has grasped the tech the way Ron demanded. Now I've found it; one of the planet's best auditors, masterly C/Sing, the bridge without arbitraries, without the stops. I'm flying along. This is the full bridge without the hang-ups. My thanks to Ron and Ralph. S. B.

Wins on the L's, L11 I would like to also say that the wins of the L's are mega - like indescribable. The only term I can use is, sorry ladies, f***ing outrageous. And often not in the session itself - the changes and cognitions can hit you quite out of the blue days, weeks and beyond after session. One evening post L11 I think it was, I was sitting quite quietly listening to some music, when, seemingly from nowhere, a whole extra, previously unsuspected layer of OT3 case hit me. It was a good job, really, that I had already done 3 and some NOTs, because the whole experience would have been an overwhelm otherwise. When I say "layer", I mean a whole layer - not just a few bits It was literally all I could do to spot one thing before the next thing came along. And as fast as I went so it came faster and faster. It was like, "there's that -- and that -- and over there -- and those -- and oh my -- those as well" And this kept up for 20 minutes or so - I think. If I had been on a meter the TA would have been going crazy. And the relief. Man I've never cried like that anytime, ever. I had this handkerchief - and it was just drenched in seconds - and this whole thing just kept going and going. And all the while that music kept up in the background and the chords were just ripping me apart - it was like they were going right through me. People on the street steal to pay for their drugs to get a their highs. Man you'd steal the whole of the dear ol' US of A to get anything like that. Nick

More wins on L's Nobody should hold my previous win on L's, or this one as any kind of hidden standard - it was just one of the things that has happened to me. And I haven't finished having all the L's yet! But do, also, realise that the previous one isn't what I call the really outrageous win. One of them I cannot describe properly. I just do not have the words to even begin to do it justice. The only thing I can call it really is the "end of death" cognition. And I don't mean going exterior for the first time or going whole track for the first time - those things really bring it home to an individual that they really are a being, not just a body. This is the end of death - as a being. The certainty that you can and will pull through no matter what, that nothing can ever really totally overwhelm you - that you're OK and you've always been OK. It relates, per my subjective reality, to OT8 somehow in a way that I haven't quite figured out - maybe it is even OT8 - I don't know - I try to leave figure figuring about what should come after the L's until - well - after the L's Anyhow, this tech is available in the FZ at one or two places. Ralph is where I got (am getting) mine. I think the others like to stay quiet about it. Do avail yourself of it when you can. Nick

Wins on L10 and L11 I have been having a good time at Ralph's doing L11 and, more recently, L10. When I write a success story, I have previously gone, "Wow" etc. Well this will be different. Here is a definition of misery for you. It is actually a definition of happiness that I saw recently by another philosopher called Betrand Russell. But, it suits me to turn it on its head (the lower tone often impinges better): Miserable is the personality that is divided against itself and/or pitted against the world. Such a personality is inevitably withdrawn from the world, unable to fully participate in life and troubled by thoughts of death because he or she sees themself separate from the world and the future. The road out of this is the path of personal integrity. The path of personal integrity is strange. It goes two ways. The wrong way goes to oblivion. The right way, when fully and earnestly followed, also leads, indeed must lead, can only lead one to the gates of hell. The difference is that clean hands provide one with a "visitor's pass for an hour". And you will find the clinker that passes for souls. Those who have played the game of life as half a person with a purpose that was ill thought, inevitably lost and, who then in error of explanation, have fought and raged until it is only themselves that are listening still. If indeed they even talk to themselves anymore, such is the depths of their misery. If that were truly an end of it, then nothing would be amiss. But, perhaps the one true thing about 'forever', is that a being never gives up. Not completely. Their one last hold on sanity is the belief that they were right all along. And so the problem just gets worse and worse and the passage of the millenia simply accumulates more and more failures and mass. And among the inmates you may find a few old friends. You may even be presented with something that looks like a mirror, except that it isn't a mirror. The beauty of it is that a relatively few well chosen questions can bring the graveyard of the long gone back to life. If you are not ready for an L, then the FPRD is a good substitute for many and the HRD is suitable for those at the beginning of the Bridge. I've enjoyed them all. Nick

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